Yes of course I fear death. I want to live! I do not believe you that you do not fear death, you're either lying to me, or lying to yourself. Death is easy to talk circles around when it's just a theory, but it'll be different when it's real. I think you're deluding yourself and that delusion will break down when you experience the pains of life escaping, or earlier. Try starvation on for size for a few weeks and see if that makes you reassess your spiritual-to-physical priorities. As I said, good luck!