I will keep pushing myself and conveying myself until someone hears me enough to return a message to me about myself so that I can understand myself better.

It seems you want to communicate and have people understand you.  If this is the case its on you to tailor your message such that others can understand it, rather than telling them to try harder to understand you.  You also seem to be trying to talk about some vague ideas that may not be expressable through langauge, since language has limitations.  If this is the case it might help to explain things in many different ways; if each explanation gives some vague glimpse into the concept then the combinations of all these will give a better understanding, even if not an exact one.  This way people can understand you better, which you seem to want.  When I was studying Zen thought it seemed to be the case that some concepts couldnt be described accurately through langauge so I found approaching defenitions in different ways helped me understand more, personal experience also helped.  This is why I suggest this.

Around 9 minutes in your new video youre talking about pre-planning your videos vs thinking things out during them as you are currently, if I understand correctly.  Thinking things  out is definately helpful for oneself, but doesnt neccesarilly help others understand it, since it seems even you are unsure when youre talking.  So you need to consider the aim of your videos.  Are they to help you formulate your own thoughts, or to help others understand your thoughts?  Each format can be helpful depending on the goal of the video.  Though if you want to help others understand your thoughts while simultaniously trying to sort out your own thoughts, a dialogue format might be more helpful.  In my experience Ive found dialgueing to be a better way to sort my own thoughts out because the other person can point out alternate ways of looking at things that I hadnt thought about, and then I can come to my own understanding through this route.

Hopefully I havent misunderstood you, and this is actually relevant, as I havent watched all your videos but I have been reading through this topic.

the AA on the clouds is looking blurry, but it also isnt really getting rid of jaggies or serving the purpose AA should, so its just looking a little jpeg-ish.  Heres a quick edit I did only to the bottom of the cloud.  Someone else could probably do it a bit better but hope it helps

mine is on the left, yours in on the right
I smoothed the overall shape of the cloud out a little inadvertantly, and I didnt really mean that to be part of the criticism, just the aa.

I had a go at the colors, and tried adding a rainbow

I think the shape of the new fire is good, I just dont get why its only an outline.  I think if you fill it in orange it will read more as a fire.  Heres a quick edit making it a solid shape and probably way out of spec


Im not sure what all the letters are in this screen either.  first one looks like "HP", then a backwards R, then D, then some kind of D E combination.