im 27. i reckon i been thiinking about this stuff since early high school -- say at least since the Sims, and Black and White. i certainly wasnt smoking weed back then. let's remove the drugs from the discussion: this week while writing this i been smoking less, taking antidepressants less, and not more. i might be on withdrawal but tbh i feel good and fine. im not taking drugs because im not even tracking the days - the idea of days is faulty. the earth spins. we made it up. i manic this week and im not manic very often. if i smoke weed its because it makes you all bearable. it slows me down. it makes me willing to consider the premise. it certainly does not drive me crazy.
if i do smoke a lot of weed, if that, its because of TRAUMA. this is the missing component of most discussions about mental health: people do not treat me well, not even DOCTORS. especially not doctors. i've lied in abusive situations and they changed me. you dont get the bright eyed tocky whos excided about new games such as The Sims and Black and White. that tocky is dead.
this is also the thing that the feminists forget to speak about, which is MENTAL HEALTH. but listen: all of the sjws are also crazy, because also trauma. we should be kinder to them also. they get in lots of flame wars. especially among themselfs. GENDER and PIXEL ART: same feel.
the things we do not talk about are SELF DIAGNOSIS and SELF TREATMENT and SELF MODERATION - GOOD PERSONAL PRAXIS, or SPELL CASTING - but these things are actually better than opening up the DSM because they are kinder. we do not need that book. replace it with this text post. its kinder.
drugs should be over the counter. i learned this from LUNARDYKE, who would not be welcom here, and do not harass her, she does not deserve you.
piledriver are you a mod who wasnt here when i was here before? a new mod? or an old mod under a different name?
the thing is its always seemed to me that the old gods, for instance helm and ptoing, are only willing to lusten to me while i am uuseful to them, and in my case this means WORK for FREE. and this is the WRONG MONAD
listen, i ahve a good therapist now. but ive had BAD THERAPISTS. i've even had a more-bad earlier version of my current therapist, who was less willing to listen, less willing to help, and more enamoured of the DIAGNOSTIC and STATISTIC MANUAL.
have you ever had to find a lost idea that you had buried within yourself? its more likely than you think. have you got what you paid for?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfrtMEMVn54this used to be on every video. if you stood in the video store they would blare it at you. and they are right, but they dont know that they are wrong. in anycase i claim this anti-piracy message for the TOCKY AGENDA.
i tell you this: pixelation and tigsource used to be different from one another, but these days they look pretty much the same. this is bad for my mental health because it make it hard to remember what site im on. its bad because ive got too many tabs open. and its bad because this place is that place, really and truly.